又做了一个男朋友出轨的梦。和以前不一样的是，特别真实，我记得很清楚。醒了这么久，心还是疼。

　　来说一个梦想吧。他通过我认识了我的研究生同学。从一开始，我就发现女生哪里不对劲，有意无意地往他身上蹭。果然，他没有经受住诱惑，上钩了。

　　我看了他们的聊天记录，和廖嫂没什么区别。很多成年人的话题，我们一见面，也开始暧昧。他们开始在我面前调情，他们也有身体接触。我看到他刚和我开始的时候害羞局促的样子，而那个女生却一脸妩媚的向他求助，表现的好像我是绿茶，我怕什么人似的。我站在一旁，感觉自己像个局外人，脑子嗡嗡作响，不知所措。我

　　回家的路上他不肯开车送我回学校，我彻底爆发了。我在路上歇斯底里，大喊大叫，无视别人的眼光。我打了他很多次耳光，我骂他没人性。他怎么能这样对我？他坚持告诉我，他真的很喜欢别人，想和他们在一起。我用指甲划破了他的脸，很长的一条。然后我回去，找到那个女孩，让她自重，打了她几个耳光。他一直想保护她。看到他为她紧张，他很兴奋，他想对这个女孩说些什么。女孩甩开他的手走了。我看到他痛苦地低着头，可笑又苦涩。他失去了一个爱他很久的人，还有一个让他自怨自艾的人。后续不知道，因为心痛，醒了。

　　如果真有这种事，我连辩解都不会，直接走人。我好到不想嫁，他却配不上我。

　　回到现实，现在他还在熟睡。等他醒了，我还是会跟他说这个梦，或者抱怨，跟他说我受了委屈。

　　很多时候，梦是无稽之谈，但有时也是生活状态的投影。上个月我很忙，压力很大，发生了很多事情，所以这个梦还不如早就预谋好了。这只是一次体面的分手，与出轨无关。

　　也是通过这个梦，我意识到，其实我很多地方做得不够好。我们彼此深爱着对方，这是这个快餐式爱情时代最珍贵的东西。他是个直男，人也挺好的，至少单纯，脾气易燃易爆，性情温和。我真的没有什么好批评的，好好待我，照顾好我的学习生活。

　　和我在一起后，他有了很多改变，我还在和他比较。总觉得他进步了很多，但是现在的状态还不如一些刚谈恋爱的男生。他一开始是个暖男，一开始也会是个成熟的能控制自己情绪的男人。

　　我忽略了。他就是他。他和我在一起应该是他最真实的样子，因为我应该是他最信任最无保留的人。我应该对他的缺点更有耐心。我是和他一起长大的人，不是一直怪他。为什么我还没长大？

　　就是在这段时间，我为我们的关系留了退路。这个梦让我清醒了很多。我也以为我可以逃脱。因为我本来就是一个洒脱的人，只是做了一个梦。我在梦里像个疯子。还是放不下，我们一起经历了那么多美好的事情，一起为对方做了那么多事情，有那么多快乐和回忆。

　　还是决定勇敢一点，有不愉快的时候，好好解决问题。如果没有原则性问题，我们还是会在一起的。

　　啊哈哈哈哈哈，在梦里，他之前的出轨对象会不会是我？没办法，我没那么瘦，也没那么绿茶，也勾搭不上有男朋友的人，连看都不会看一眼。我是一个正直的好男孩。

　　一大早录了一波，心情平复了。

　　睡在笼子里。

　　早上好，起床的人们。

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　　又做了男朋友出轨的梦，和过去不一样，特别真实，也记得特别清楚，醒了这么久感觉心还是很痛。

　　说起梦想，他通过我认识了我的研究生同学。刚开始的时候，我发现那个女孩有点不对劲。我有意无意地蹭了他一下。

　　我看着他们的聊天记录，和廖的骚没什么区别，很多大人的话题，在我面前见面也开始暧昧，开始调戏，也有肢体接触，我第一次看到他和我在一起时的羞涩的样子，欲言又止，女孩儿撒着娇让他帮忙，一副清茶的样子，我怕我喜欢的是谁，我站在旁边，觉得自己像个局外人，脑子嗡嗡作响，不知所措，我还是想在人前给他挽回一点好感。

　　在回家的路上，他拒绝开车送我回学校

　　etely broke out, hysterical in the street, Shouting, ignoring the eyes of others, I slapped him many times, I called him inhuman, how could he do this to me, he insisted that he really liked someone else, and should be with someone else. I scratched his face with his nails, a long line of cut, and then I came back, found a girl, let her self-respect, also played for slap, he always wanted to protect her, to see him for the way she's nervous is exciting, what want to and the girl said, girl off his hand away, I see the way he squatted down holding the head pain, goofy, and lost a loved his people for a long time, And I lost someone who made him feel fresh, so I decided to destroy him, and I circulated their chat logs to everyone we knew. Don't know the follow-up, because the heart pain woke up.

　　If there is such a thing, I will not theory, just walk away, I am so good, not worry about marrying, is he does not deserve my good.

　　Back to reality. Now he's still sleeping and when he wakes up I'm still gonna tell him about the dream, or I'm gonna complain, or I'm gonna tell him that I was wronged.

　　Most of the time, dreams are gratuitous, but sometimes it is also the projection of the state of life, last month was busy, pressure is not small, also happened a lot of things, so this dream is rather premeditated for a long time, just a decent separation, not cheating.

　　We love each other deeply, which is the most precious thing in this era of fast food love. He is a very straight boy, and he is also very good. At least, he is simple, and his temper is flammable and explosive. Other I really have nothing to be picky, very good to me, my study life also take good care of.

　　With me, he made a lot of changes, and I still compare, always feel that he is a lot of progress, but he is not as good as some boys just fall in love with the state, at the beginning is a warm man, at the beginning will do a will control their emotions of mature man.

　　I ignored that he is him, he and I should be his most real appearance, because I should be the person he trusts most, without reservation, his bad place I should be more patient, I am with him to grow up, rather than always blame him, why not grow up.

　　Is I in this period of time to our feelings left a retreat, the dream is let me awake a lot, I also think, I can get out, because I was a free and easy person, just a dream, I in the dream like a madman. Still can not put down, experienced so much good together, together for each other to do so many things, there are so many happy, memories.

　　Or decide to be brave, have a bad time, solve the problem, no problem of principle or good together.

　　I'm not that thin, and I don't have that green tea. I wouldn't hook up with anyone who has a boyfriend. I wouldn't give you a good look.

　　Early in the morning, record a wave, the mood is also calm.

　　Take a nap.

　　Good morning, people who get up.

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